There’s gotta be something more

So much has happened in my head these past couple of days. My heart is still settling and I’m finally seeing what Boston did to me.

There’s a cry in my heart for more. I want more of God in a way that I’ve never have before. School and work and even money just seem unimportant to a degree in which I’m scared I might be going off on the wrong tangent. Hanging out sometimes feels like a waste of time. All I want is to be in my room, play my guitar, read my Bible and be. Other times, since I can’t play the piano (not for long though), I have to ask my brother to play the piano while I sing and pray. There’s something indescribable about flowing in God’s Word and repeating His words over and over again, feeling them marinate in my spirit.

The reason why I’m so infatuated with the Prayer Room webstream is not because I like music (although I think I don’t like anything as much as I like music) but because they’re singing the Word. And repeatedly they sing verses that are beginning to stick to my heart. So I listen to the singers (who have an amazing voice for my taste… most of them anyways) minister to the heart of God and my own heart starts to be pulled into the words. Suddenly I’m being drawn more and more into His heart.

Then I’m taking a ride on the boat with my friends and it rains and all I can think of is God, His beauty and how I am so amazed by Him.

This might be a bold thing to say, especially so soon, but I think my mind is beginning to become more of a Godly mindset.

Movies seem irrelevant, secular music feel unimportant, books are a waste of effort.

I usually do this whole conclusion to my posts, which I’ve also been taught to do on anything I write. But I can’t conclude here. Maybe with a song that’s kinda been stuck in my mind that reflects my state in so many aspects.

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Something More – Switchfoot

Augustine just woke up with a broken heart
All this time he’s never been awake before
At 31 his whole world is a question mark
All this time he’s never been awake before

Watching dreams that he once had
Feed the flame inside his head
In a quiet desperation of the emptiness
He says

“There’s gotta be something more
Than what I’m living for
I’m crying out to You”

Augustine, all his fears keeping falling out
All this time he’s never been awake before
Finding out his old dreams aren’t panning out
All this time he’s never been awake before

But he’s mad to be alive
And he’s dying to be met
In a quiet desperation of the emptiness
He says

“There’s gotta be something more
Than what I’m living for
I’m crying out to You”

Hey, I give it all away
Nothing I was holding back remains
Hey, I give it all away
Looking for the grace of God today